Hopeful Sorrows

It is October. That means Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. In all honesty, this awareness is neverending for those who've experienced loss. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think our babies. The echoes of little voices we will never hear. The pitter-patter of little feet that will never touch our floor.

While October brings awareness to child loss for those who haven't experienced it, it brings a little slip of hope to me. Hope that the purpose for God making me an earthly vessel for my heavenly baby is being revealed. To me, this month signifies to moms who feel alone in their struggles of losing their babies that they in fact are not alone and they can put their hope in the revelation that their babies were also part of something bigger.

I believe 100% without a doubt that God has a plan for our babies. He has a plan for us as parents of our angel babies. We may not want to accept it. We don't have to like it, and we may fight him tooth and nail, but once we are able to accept that our babies are in a better place waiting to welcome us HOME, October serves as a reminder that we are the ones in the temporary holding cell. Our babies are home awaiting our arrival. They have fulfilled their purpose and are waiting on us to fulfill ours.

If you have lost a baby, no matter how far along, no matter how old, this is your reminder: there is a reason God needed that child. There is a reason God needed you. Though your sorrow is crippling and the burden of blame lies heavy on you, take heart in knowing your story can help others. Rest easy knowing your hope lies in the one holding us all on earth and in Heaven. You can find hope in the sorrow by looking to the one who holds the answers you seek knowing one day soon, you will not only be holding those answers but you'll be holding those little hands you never got to hold on earth.

Romans 8:18 reads, "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." Part of that glory for us will be meeting and reuniting with our babies, so hold on.